9. A joyful pledge… “never ever ever again…”

“Hurray!…How wonderful!…Hurray!”
“I don’t have to do that anymore! Never, ever, ever again!”
An Ode of Joy!

“Never, ever, ever again!”
N.E.E.A
Hurray!

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noticing, observing, learning, understanding

NOT believing my own thinking….seeing how skewed it often is…
Leading to….
NOT concerning myself with what others might be thinking….
because…their thinking is skewed, too…
ALL OF US stuck in OUR OWN patterns, beliefs, ideas, opinions and thoughts…
All OF US confused or mistaken when we create and believe those thoughts…
Oh my goodness…………WE’RE ALL STUCK!

Sooooooo….
“I don’t need to do that anymore!”
“I don’t need to do that anymore…never, ever, ever again!

Not needing to believe my own thoughts,
Not needing to believe others’ thoughts…
Not imagining what others might be thinking…
Not imagining trying to explain why I’m a “good enough” human being…
Not feeling uncared about when others are busy elsewhere…
Not imagining thoughts from others…
Not trying to figure others out or fix things for people

Well…. I guess I was confused or mistaken when I created and believed those…

There seems to be a new perspective emerging

Coming out of these awarenesses, reasonings and realizations….
….very, very simply….
“I don’t need to do that anymore!”

simply
“I don’t need to do that anymore!”
“Never, ever, ever again!”
“N.E.E. A”

Hurray! How wonderful! Hurray!
an “ode of joy!”…an “ode to joy!”

a joyful pledge…
“I don’t need to do that anymore!”
freedom!

By doing this, I can hopefully nurture and develop a greater, deeply appreciated sense of…
peace of mind
well being
steadiness

A progression of reasonings , below…that lead to these awarenesses
(Click “progressions” link for a much easier to read pdf copy of this page)

Going beyond those earlier reasonings…
Going deeper to see some possible dynamics of the confusions…
Realizing that recognizing and understanding how that mistaken thinking happened
might lead to greater freedom, steadier, more stable happiness and contentment

$never ever ever again first tex$

A few more observations and reasonings….leading to that awareness…
“I don’t have to do that anymore….!”
because….

Well, I’ll probably continue to “do” that…creating some of those “habitual,” imagined, worrisome thoughts…since it’s a habit…

BUT….. I can repeatedly remind myself….bring to mind… “I don’t have to do that anymore….!”

There’s the potential for freedom from being “stuck” in believing my own personally “skewed” thoughts …freedom from constantly creating habitual, imagined, worrisome thoughts…those thoughts aren’t and weren’t “true” and they’ve led to so much unhappiness in myself and others…..

I can enrich my life and the lives of those around me, leading to increasing sense of…
peace of mind
well being
steadiness

I can practice reminding myself
with a sense of joyful celebration…
with Lady Liberty holding her “beacon of wisdom” high…for me and for everyone else
as they’re playing that robust “Ode to Joy!”

Listening to Beethoven’s beautiful, powerful symphonic music….
Vaguely recalling more contemporary song lyrics to that music..
Both of those…so beautiful, powerful, insightful and inspiring…
leading me along my way…

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a sense of
“Hurray! How wonderful! Hurray!”
“I don’t need to do that anymore! Never, ever, ever again!”

An “Ode of Joy!”
An “Ode to Joy!”
“Hurray!”

“Hurray! How wonderful! Hurray!”
…..simply…..
An “Ode of Joy!”
An “Ode to Joy!”
“Hurray!”

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Note about how the ideas and images on these pages emerge and developed:

I had been learning about, noticing, observing and realizing this “skewing” of my own thinking for several months…that awareness was a huge shock and more than a bit disconcerting!..but I was starting to get used to that awareness, in some everyday interactions.

But in situations of reacting to what I didn’t like or didn’t want…still a BIG surprise that my thinking might be skewed!

And sometimes… when right in the midst of more deeply felt reactions…I can’t even begin to take in that I might have “skewed” thoughts, perspectives or reactions…I can’t even begin to “see” that…but slowly I’m starting to be able to at least think that might possibly be occurring…an occasional, tiny, tiny little glimpse.

Several weeks ago, I had the idea pop into my mind of “I don’t have to do that anymore…never, ever, ever again!” I don’t have to belief those “skewed” thoughts, I don’t have to continue to create those imagined those thoughts…I don’t have to believe others’ thoughts… I can learn to NOT do that anymore. I continued happily saying that mantra, again and again…reminding myself… “I don’t have to do that anymore…never, ever, ever again!”

A few nights ago, I was silently repeating that “mantra” …. “I don’t have to do that anymore…never, ever, ever again!” as I was sitting on the couch semi-watching an amazing, basketball game…. the incredible Golden State Warriors basketball team playing at Madison Square Garden.

Suddenly, there on the tv screen was an amazing night time photo of the strong, powerful, beautiful, inspiring Statue of Liberty…Lady Liberty…standing so tall, strong, powerful and erect, holding that amazing beacon….a beacon of light encouraging independence, liberty, freedom…freedom from feeling “bound” …freedom from feeling “STUCK” …freedom to choose…freedom to live with more contentment, happiness and joy!

I quickly took a few photos of Lady Liberty on the tv screen. One photo, surprisingly, had a reflection of our lampshade over Lady Liberty’s beacon of light…superimposing my own light over her own light…an inspiration of strength, courage, persistence, freedom and possibilities!

I was connecting the reasoning ideas, the mantra “I don’t have to do that anymore! Never, ever, ever again!” and the powerful image of Lady Liberty…realizing that blending these images, words and ideas might lead to far more “freedom” …nurturing and encouraging my own freedom to choose…my own freedom from feeling “stuck!”…my own freedom to live with more a steady and stable sense of contentment, happiness, love and joy…..

I fell asleep on the couch and didn’t wake up until 2 AM (!!!)… I very, very slowly seemed to awaken from a deep, deep sleep… a deep dream…of being in the recovery room (which I actually was in 2 months ago…for an operation) and just emerging from and awakening from the depths of the very deep deep sleep of anesthesia….and from that very late evening “nap.”

Both in the dream, and as I was coming back out of the dream, I could hear a symphony playing Beethoven’s Ode of Joy… playing very softly in the operating room….and then slightly louder in the recovery room. As I was slowly, slowly, slowly awakening from the anesthesia and the dream….and coming back toward consciousness from both of those… I slowly became aware that “Ode of Joy” was actually being played on our tv…. that deep, powerful, resounding, robust symphony filled our living room with the powerful symphonic music, as I was “awakening.”

What a powerful dream….what a “parable” of emerging from the very deep sleep of anesthesia and from a dream during natural deep sleep…awakening to An Ode of Joy….the freedom to feel more joy, more love, more happiness…supported by letting go of believing my thinking.

And so…all within several hours…combining those awarenesses about creating skewed thinking…repeatedly saying the mantra of “I don’t have to do that anymore! Never, ever, ever again!”… seeing the beautiful, mesmerizing, powerful image of Lady Liberty holding her incredible, inspiring beacon of light and seeming to be leading the way for whomever might choose to follow …and then slowly “awakening” as I was hearing the powerful, inspiring, resounding Ode of Joy!…

Wow! “Hurray! How wonderful! Hurray!”

And so………….that seems to be “how” the understandings, images, music, ideas and words on these pages “emerged” from the combining and blending of the awarenesses; the mantra “I don’t have to do that anymore! Never, ever, ever again!”; Lady Liberty’s powerful strength and guiding, beckoning Beacon Light; and the Ode to Joy.…………….Wow! What a gifts I received!….

Ahhhhh….
the beauty of being able to live with more…
peace of mind
well being
steadiness

Ahhhhh….that sounds soooooo wonderful!